First of all, thanks to all of you who have been there for Nate and I over the past several years. You’ve listened to us, encouraged us, and have prayed for us through a difficult season of desiring to grow our family, and coming up empty. This journey has definitely been better with you alongside us!

This update is to let you know a little bit more about what is going on with us, and especially with me, so far in the year 2012.

Many of you know that I have sought medical answers for solving the puzzle of my infertility. What started out with missed periods and erratic hormones has lead to numerous trips to Denver for blood tests, ultrasounds, and MRIs. What has been found is a fairly large tumor on my left ovary.

The good  news is that the doctor finally found something (the tumor) that is most likely the culprit for my ovulation problems, and this tumor is probably benign. The odds are in my favor because:

A) I'm young.

B) The labs I did to look for cancer markers came back within normal limits.

However, the bottom line is that this tumor needs to come out. It is interfering with the rest of my reproductive system and needs to be biopsied to make sure that it is not cancerous.

I definitely wasn’t planning on having a major surgery in my 27th year, but I am trying to stay positive about it. This was very difficult when I met with the surgeon and went over all the “what-ifs” of surgery. I know they are required to go over every possibility with  me before they put me under anesthesia (as I’m no longer able to make decisions at that point) but it is still scary to hear that if things look “bad” they could remove both of my ovaries or even do a complete hysterectomy—taking away any chance I have left of getting pregnant.

Here is what I do know (and Nate and I are clinging to this), we have a God  who is not a God of “what ifs,” he is the Healer and we choose to trust him with our lives, no matter what. That in mind, please pray that I would  continue to trust him fully, that the surgery would go well, and that this tumor is not cancer.

 

The LORD is my light and my salvation—
   whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
   of whom shall I be afraid?

-Psalm 27:1

My surgery is most likely later this month, so I will keep you posted!